Here I am back under my mom's roof in Canada. It has only been two days and I already feel as if Africa was decades ago. This doesn't mean I've forgotten about the FYM program or abandoned all that was taught to me during it. These feelings, rather, stem from severe heartache over missing my team, my ministry and a location that held relationships of far more value than schedules or material items. This heartache, however, is being cared for by my gracious Father, who is unchanging. He's spoken to me exactly what I need in continuing out this journey. Already God has lifted a lot of judgment, fear, and anxiety from my shoulders. He does this by reminding me of the truth I've come to accept over the past nine months: that I am lowly, despised, and weak. I am overjoyed that our most Holy Savior has changed me through His Spirit. But the greater joy behind that comes with Grace and Salvation. In the process of making disciples in Africa, I myself was changed from a mere believer to a disciple. All of this was only done through the grace of God. He met me in my inadequacies and made me complete through a pure union with Christ. I am privileged to me abiding in Him and bearing witness to all of the fruit that has been harvested in doing so. I saw the Lord open the door of faith to so many individuals and in inviting me to also come through that door He accomplished immeasurably more than I could ask or imagine. God poured His confidence, knowledge, power, speech, and love into me and I am continually going to be open to receiving an abundance of that and more. I pray that this wealth I've gained will be used in the building up of the kingdom.
Joshua 22:8 ... Go back to your tents with much wealth and with very much livestock, with silver, gold, bronze, and iron, and with much clothing. Divide the spoil of your enemies with your brothers.
"My
family, whom I love in truth. Beloved, I pray that all may go well with you and
that you may be in good health, as it goes well with your soul. For I rejoiced
greatly when the brothers came and testified to your truth, as indeed you are
walking in the truth. I have no greater joy than to hear that my children are
walking in the truth." 3 John 1:1-4
I was sincerely overjoyed to hear
through my sister, Laura, of the great fruit that has been taking form on your
end of things. It is so encouraging to be reminded that God's Spirit transcends
all borders, allowing wondrous work to be accomplished among the nations. I am
much more eager for my return, now in less than a month, knowing that I will be
stepping into a place of spiritual cultivation as well as amazing opportunity.
Throughout my time here, the Lord has ignited in me a passion for Calgary and
the people already in my life as well as the people I have yet to meet. This
fire is continually being fueled as the time fast approaches for me to come
home.
The excitement for ministry in Calgary has in no
way dampened my heart for Swaziland. Just this morning I was reading on
Christ's power as the "Alpha and Omega; the Beginning and the End." He most
certainly has time in His hands and I am aware that my dedication to Africa is
not limited to just a few weeks. This last stretch has given me the chance to
see how I will continue my labour here in Swaziland from Canada through prayer
of course as well as other creative means.I've also been blessed to see God orchestrate His people perfectly so
that the physical ministry here will not cease with the team's departure.
This past week the Lord validated this at our
Youth Center ministry. As mentioned in previous e-mails, two other girls and I
have been meeting with women from the Life Skills or "Youth" Center every
Tuesday since January. The center works to train Swazis in basic business so
that they will be equipped enough to open independent companies. The eight
ladies we visit with are part of a textile business, so much of our Tuesdays
are spent attempting to lend a hand in preparing the orders. All three of us
took a crack at the sewing machines on one of our first days of ministry and to
no surprise the women have not asked us to assist in that way since. However,
we've become pros at removing poor stitching and ironing uniforms. The
remainder of our days are spent diving into the Word. As a large group, we
teach and discuss on God's purpose for our lives. This topic has touched on
things such as conformity to Christ, heaven, and unity. The studies have
reached beyond the sewing ladies. Some of the women mentioned that their
husbands are going through the handouts at home and we often have visitors from
other departments dropping in on our meetings. SiSwati bibles were also passed
out to all of the women which soon caught the ears of all the workers on site.
Luckily our team has a stash of bibles in our home, so we've been blessed to give
away over ten and counting. The growth we as a ministry team have seen at the
Youth Center is very encouraging and as I mentioned before, the Lord has
already begun planting people who will continue the ministry when we leave.
Nonhlanhla, one of the quieter ladies, volunteered to lead next week's lesson,
so we are eager to see how God uses her. With only two Tuesday's left at the
Center, this could not be better timing for the teaching swap. The reality of
two Tuesdays is saddening for our hearts, but it also forces us to be
intentional.
This reality is true for all of my ministries:
the market, gas station, and Hope House. To your benefit, I will not go into
detail with all of them, but I will give praises to the Spirit and the
incredible love He has given me for each and every one, especially in these
last moments. I am looking forward to sharing testimonies of this work face to
face with anyone who is willing to listen upon my return.
There is a lot more that has gone down over the
past month and I am sure that many of you have heard things through the
grapevine. Just to bring anyone who may be missing out up to speed before I
conclude I'll point out a few highlights, or, lowlights that were quick to turn
around for the good of God's people. Since spring break and the unexpected
events which I wrote about in my latest e-mail, there has been a mass amount of
suffering experienced not only by the Swaziland team, but the entire AIM group
in Africa. We've had two of our teammates, Matt and Tyler, have to leave for
home early for physical emergencies. Both boys were troubled with going so
unexpectedly, however, the Lord has already proved to be the Father of
redemption and we have seen His glory immensely in their departures. Another,
very unexpected tragedy was that of a car accident in Port Elizabeth. The
accident left two injured and to everyone's shock, took the life of Sarah
Buller. Many of you know that Sarah was my ministry partner at Love A Child
last semester. The state of brokenness this situation brought not only myself,
but everyone involved with the Africa Awakening 08' and of course Sarah's
family allowed for such comfort and restoration from God. It's been nearly two
weeks since the incident and our Swazi team in particular has experienced the
joy of suffering in such an intense way. Needless to say, we still need the body's
continued praise and prayers concerning the matter. Please keep the PE team
especially on your heart as they are struggling with the means to press on and
where exactly they will be pressing onwards to.
As
I keep relaying, our God is the perfect orchestrator, and all of the latest
events, those of tragedy and triumph, most certainly proclaim glory to His
name. Personally, I am overwhelmed by His goodness and have been contrasting
that with my sinful nature more than ever over the past few weeks. What a
blessing it is to receive such love and grace from the King of Kings. With that
said I wish all of you a most Happy Easter, better late than never for He is
risen every day in our lives and send the Lord's love and my prayers.
"I have much to write to you, but I would rather
not write with pen and ink. I hope to see you soon, and we will talk face to
face. Peace be to you. The friends greet you. Greet the friends, every one of
them." 3 John 1:13-15
"And let us consider how to stir up one
another to love and good works, not neglecting to meet together, as is the
habit of some, but encouraging one another, and all the more as you see the Day
drawing near."
My partners in Christ,
I write to you with exceeding joy, knowing
that the Day of our Lord is fast approaching. The hour of His return has been my
focus over the months and I pray that it remains that way. I also pray that
through hearing of His amazing works in Swaziland, you will be encouraged to
stand strong in the battle that's already been won.
My
heart is most thrilled with the events of this past week. Today marks the last
of our nine day long spring break. Many of my teammates traveled back to South
Africa to visit old friends and ministries which left the house to just seven
of us. I am so grateful for the hungry atmosphere that came with the much
needed space. The group frequently met with God individually and together,
resulting in extensive growth. Every night was spent reading from the book of
Hebrews along with a sometimes lengthy discussion and meditation period. Last
night the study was concluded, but I trust that the changes in my heart
throughout it will be lasting.
Aside
from the Hebrews study, our "mini family" did many other things together. Just
yesterday five of us girls went back to one of our family ministry sites in the
nearby township to paint a school. The school is run by Gugu, a vibrant woman
who has volunteered the past 10 years to giving free education to children.
Gugu's desire for the school is to have it as something the kids don't have to
be ashamed of. When compared to the city schools, theirs is often referred to
as a shack. A few weeks back, the entire team went to the property for some
hard labour. After the team day there and our completed painting, I'm certain
the children and Gugu will have better eyes for the area. We still have a few
more coats with some decorating to follow and one of our team teaches at the
school twice a week so the project is ongoing.
The
spiritual growth the seven of us have gone through entails much more than what
was mentioned. Because of such a pressing into the Spirit, the devil was at
work. We've dealt with a lot of spiritual warfare concerning safety. A strange
young man, now thought to be under some sort of witchcraft, came to our house
on more than one occasion even after being confronted by the guy staying with
us. After a restless night for all of us he hasn't been back. Another incident
occurred just following the painting party at the school. We girls had decided
to walk back instead of calling for a ride because our leader had been up the
previous night dealing with the stranger at our home. After being followed by a
man for quite a ways, we were suddenly attacked. He was quite forceful and
defended himself by thrashing a screw driver until he was able to run away with
my bag. Praise God all of us are okay! My bag had virtually all of my values
(i.e. Camera, iPod, phone, and wallet) which was very disconcerting at first,
but the Lord was quick to reveal my heart's treasures to me and I am completely
at peace about it now (note Hebrews 11:25-26). All of us do request, however,
that you cover our team in extensive prayer. We've been very in tune with God
throughout this, recognizing his source of ultimate safety and power and we
would be so thankful if you continued to pray this realization over us.
So,
those events marked the last days of our spring break, which means this week
will involve getting back into the swing of our usual ministries and
discipleship times. I am looking forward to meeting with my friends from the
market, Hope House, the Youth Center, and the gas station. You'll be pleased to
know that those relationships are ever flourishing. Every Tuesday at the Youth
Center, myself and two of my teammates are doing a bible study for the sewing
ladies. They always take an hour or so for lunch where we discuss topics
centered on "God's purpose". I am thrilled at the response we've been receiving
from a few of the women. The study is tying into their families, marriage, and
especially into their work. With only six Tuesdays left with them, please pray
that there would be a great spirit of healing and revival with the group. The
Lord has also been moving just as much with Sizwe from the gas station. Our
first meetings with him were more "question and answer" periods, but now he is
sharing alongside us by being a translator for our interactions with locals who
come into the station. He is also focusing on pouring his new found insights
into some of his closest friends. Please keep Sizwe's spiritual and mental
strength in your prayers, as he is facing tempting job offers that he agreed
would only "cater to his old lifestyle." Glory to God, though, for the immense
progress we've seen in Sizwe, the Youth Center women, and others not mentioned
in detail.
I
don't want to overwhelm you with lengthy descriptions of my life in Swaziland,
so if you are eager to hear more I encourage you to read the blogs of my teammates
and I. The links that are in bold are the people who I am in ministry with. I
also urge you to take a look at the guy's blogs as they have been doing intense
leadership classes at one of the local high schools on a day to day basis.
The URLS are as follows:
Alenebrunkhurts.myadventures.org
Lorettawang.myadventures.org
Jilliangray.myadventures.org
Laynecarson.myadventures.org
Jessicagourley.myadventures.org
Sarahtaylor.myadventures.org
Maryhollis.myadventures.org
Sarahkeppinger.myadventures.org
Allysabolles.myadventures.org
Davieingram.myadventures.org
Ryancharmichael.myadventures.org
Blairnightingale.myadventures.org
Tylerbussanich.myadventures.org
As always, I
appreciate your special interest in God's work through me and around me here in
Africa. I am constantly encouraged by thoughts of home and the love and
opportunities that await me there. I leave you with selected pictures from
ministry and our spring break hike. As you get a peek into my world here keep
in mind that these are only glimpses of our eternity.
"Restore to me the joy of your salvation,
and uphold me with a willing spirit."
For the past few weeks I've been struggling
with what to write for my next blog. I considered the usual: ministry updates,
new spiritual insights, etc. Well here I am on the sixth day of my spring break
and I realize that there is only one thing that's been consistently on my mind
for all of these six days – Christmas. Random, I am well aware of that, but
completely relevant at the same time. So, here as I listen to my "Christmas
Mix" I'll shed a little light on my current state of mind.
After
remaining in South Africa this Christmas season, I've developed a new found
appreciation for the holiday and all of the things that come with it. With the
absence of a winter wonder land, the need for excessive layers, and my amazing
family this Christmas was also lacking in a spirit of true celebration. I
dragged myself through winter break thinking of everything good that I was
missing out on.
Break
came and went and the thoughts of Christmas still occupied my mind in the
months following. As me and my teammates frequently talked about all of the
splendour that was awaiting us next winter, I was pleased with my latest love
for the season. Next Christmas will be unlike any other. I made plans to be
truly "merry", seizing every opportunity to go ice skating, bake cookies, play
Bing Crosby, and read by the fireplace. Sounds magical, right? The plan to do
these things still stands, but should that really be the source of my pleasure,
and what would I do during the summer months that await me?
I find myself
wrapped up in the joy that these novelties bring, rather than finding the joy
that comes with the birth of Christ. And not just His birth, but also his death
and the fact that that means I get to spend each day in communion with Him.
Should not every day be as warm and treasured as the ones from December? As I
write this I'm reminded of familiar lyrics, "You will get a sentimental feeling
when you hear voices singing let's be jolly, deck the halls with boughs of
holly." Let's try something with different words, ones that will play joy into
your life every day of the year, "You will get a sentimental feeling when you
hear voices singing "For unto you is born this day in the city of David, a
Saviour, Who is Christ the Lord." (Luke 2:11)
Come everyone who thirsts, come to the waters; and he who has no money, come buy and eat! Come buy wine and milk without money and without price. Why do you spend your money for that which is not bread, and labor for that which does not satisfy? Listen diligently to me, and eat what is good, and delight yourselves in rich food. Incline your ear, and come to me; hear that your soul may live; and I will make an everlasting convenant, my steadfast sure love for David. Behold, I made him a witness to the peoples, a leader and commander for the peoples. Behold you shall call a nation that you do not know, and a nation that did not know you shall run to you, because of the Lord your God, and of the Holy One of Israel, for he has glorified you.
This letter is from Gail, Jesus Christ's daughter, chosen by God to be a messenger to the kingdom of Swaziland. This message has been promised by the Lord through his word; the word that tells of his Son, Jesus, who took on the burden of many through his death and resurrection. His resurrection is the very reason we have the privilege of spreading God's hope everywhere.
As my brothers and sisters in Christ, I know you are equally as passionate about sharing this message; one that has proven so much victory in your own lives. I am familiar, however, with the distractions of this world that so fervently steal this passion. With the sudden crashing of the economy, all eyes are on our comforts. Cars, homes, jobs, and food are just a few of the things that occupy our daily thoughts. Yes, you claim to trust the Lord, but why not put a little money here and there, just in case he doesn't follow through? And you are aware that your life should be dedicated to building up his kingdom, but how can you meet the needs of others if your own needs are not met?
These examples are harsh truths, ones that I fully own up to also. Only until I began to live among the people here were my eyes opened to the hardness of my heart. I fought long and hard with God throwing nonsense at him like, "Lord, I've already tithed a huge chunk of my income to come on this trip" or "If I give this last dollar I won't have money to call my family." Of course anyone who knows God, he was quick to put me in my place. Most of the Swazi people live off of less than $30.00 a month. They are depending on the Lord to provide their one meal a day. I have no room to complain. Everything we see belongs to the Lord, our bank accounts included. If he asks us to give, we must do it cheerfully and without hesitation.
So here I am with a wide open opportunity to give to the building of His kingdom. God has Swaziland in His hands – this means it is also resting in our hands. During the past two months I have been a witness to the Father's incredible power. Through willing hearts, a nation has begun running to Christ and his calling. I have a remainder of 75 days here and the labor is nowhere near being done. My heart is so excited to see what the Lord accomplishes during my last two months here.
As the body of Christ, you have a huge part to play in this! My support account is short just over $2000.00 U.S. and that debt has to be paid by mid April. I pray that you would soften your heart to giving. It is my hope that the amount raised would go beyond the requirements. Delight yourselves in rich food, a supply that will last for eternity.
I appreciate any form of giving, be in through prayer, finances or both. My never-ending thanks go to all who read and consider this.
In Him,
Gail
If you're on board with supporting go to http://gailantosh,myadventures.org and look in the left hand column for the link that says "Support Me" OR make cheques or money orders out to "Adventures in Missions" Memo "Gail Antosh – FYM" and send them to:
But
blessed are those who trust in the Lord and have made the Lord their hope and
confidence. They are like trees planted along a riverbank, with roots that
reach deep into the water. Such trees are not bothered by the heat or worried
about long months of drought. Their leaves stay green and they go right on
producing delicious fruit.
Since the moment I crossed the border into
Swaziland, my eyes were captivated by the display of creation. The streets are
bordered with collection of colorful flowers, only appearing as frosting to
the olive mountains that stand tall in the background. That's what the body of
Christ should resemble. The Swazi heat is unbearable to most of us, but the
trees here aren't bothered by it, for they know the rain will soon refresh
their roots, allowing them to continually flourish, that they may bear many
flora and fruits. I very much desire to trust the Lord in this way, taking
heart at the most difficult moments. It is so easy to proclaim your hope in God,
but to live each day as if it is true is another story. The battle stretches
and challenges me to the core. It is a race very much worth the fruit that
proceeds. As I run towards the finish line I'm faced with the devil's hurdles,
persuading me to turn back. Rather than turning around with the plan of
quitting, I look back to see the amount of succulent fruit that has already
been harvested. Christ has proven His victory, and I am endlessly reminded of
that as I run the reel of my life. So here'some fruit to taste.
I'll
begin with my most favorite ministry site, the Manzini Market. This place has
my favor for many reasons, the main being it's eclectic array of opportunity.
If one were to walk into the market they'd be overwhelmed with the palette of
products. Fruits, vegetables, jewelery, fabrics, and pillows are just a few of
the goods available for purchase. More important than the products, however,
are the faces behind them. My roommate, Alyssa, says that's cliche, and it is,
but often we fail to recognize the importance of these formulas. Shopping was
blown out of the water once I struck up meaningful conversation with the women.
The relationships began more than a month ago and now every Monday has been
dedicated to the discipleship of my new friends. To give you a glimpse into
some of their stories I'll name some names and describe our weekly meetings.
Mnomsa, a lady in her mid-twenties, was the first to hold a significant
dialogue with me. She is very passionate about the Lord and connects to Him
best through praise and worship. My team mate, Jillian, and I have showed her our
favorite worship artists. Mnomsa is such a vibrant soul and is always willing
to show us the tricks of Swazi culture. Her close neighbour, Siyabongile, is a
40some year old lady who has an education in business and marketing. Out
meeting can go anywhere as she has extensive knowledge in English. The latest
topic of conversation has been food and her love for cooking. Two girls and I
had the pleasure (sort of) of trying a common Swazi dish thanks to Siyabongile. Lagusha, our lunch for that day, is a very viscous green liquid made of a
common leaf. We were able to swallow it all smiles thanks to the accompanying
Millie Pop, similar to cream of wheat. Siya has had her son on her heart lately
as he searches for a job. Finding work is very difficult in Swaziland, so we
are asking the Lord to open a position for him, one that will use his education
in marketing management. Another one of my market friends who needs prayer is
Nelsiwe. She is 26 years old and married with two children, a 3 year old girl
and 9 month old son. Our conversations are very much centered on the church and
what it means to be a member of Christ's body. The Spirit often points us
toward scripture and meditation. Her heart is very eager to see her Catholic
husband develop a deeper relationship with Jesus. She is hoping that both he
and their children can come to the market one day so we can finally meet. I am
so pleased with how this ministry has developed and look forward to deepening
my relationships there.
Another ministry site that has taken a
piece of my heart is the local gas station. This place seriously has been
anointed by God. The team had discussed forming below the surface relations
with the nearby stores before we arrived we came to Swaziland and it's been
awesome to see that vision fulfilled. It began at my first visit to the station
where I met Thandie. She is the sweetest woman and has such a pure heart. We
quickly adopted her as our Swazi Gogo. Most of our time with her is hearing
stories of her hardships and her relentless trust in the Lord through them. She
is such a hard-working woman, desiring to support her family in any means
possible. She works 6 days a week, the mornings at the nearby gas station and
the afternoon at ours. In her spare time she also knits everything from
slippers to sweater vests. This hobby is also another way of earning money.
Wool is pretty expensive here so one of my teammates is having her
grandmother's closet stash sent here for Thandie. This woman has touched my
heart so much since being here. The Holy Spirit has also pulled us to several
other employees at the gas station. One of them is a 24 year old man named
Sizwe. His passion and hunger for God has been so evident since the first time
we met him. Our conversations have centered on how to be a light in a country
such as Swaziland, the exact thing these people need to be discipled for. So
encouraging and being encouraged by him is so amazing. The boys on our team are
hoping to meet him also so that a stronger connection with him can be made.
Since the gas station is on the way to most of our ministry sites, I often
visit and get caught in an hour of spirit-driven discussion.
I cannot begin to
describe the fruit that is being seen there and the blessing it has been to me.These ministry highlights are merely at the
surface level and are just a hint at the Lord's power. Give God praise though,
for the fruit mentioned here and the countless other seeds that are being
planted in my ministry and in my teammates. Lights are clearly being lit all
over the city of Manzini and I wait for the day when it shines like the Son.
I've come to the end of my first month in Swaziland. It's been an overwhelming time, one that seems entirely too short to have incorporated so much. After being pulled by the Spirit into many ministries, studies, and relationships I finally find myself settling in. To "settle" for me at this point means not to find a place of contentment, but rather a place of willingness. To put it simply, I've begun to abide and settle into the spirit. It is very evident to me the blessing that follows after pressing in to what the Holy Spirit desires. I have countless stories and accounts giving praise to the Spirit, ones that would not do Him justice with my short blurbs. Nonetheless (as Davie would say) I will describe several highlights so you can get a better image of what these blessings have been all about.
It would be most convenient for everyone if I just ran through a typical "Spirit driven" day, although typical isn't very appropriate seeing as the Spirit is full of surprises. That being said, I'll just dive right into it and try to organize the latest events. I'll begin with team discipleship. The eighteen of us come together on Tuesday and Thursday mornings to discuss the book of Romans. We've been reading one or two chapters individually throughout the week so that we can be prepared for the two hour long conversation we'll have as a team. The hours entail a rereading of the chapter along with the exchange of thoughts, insights, and questions; pretty standard stuff. To be perfectly honest, although we had good intentions, rarely was the spirit ever a part of our meetings. I don't doubt that He brought clarity to many of the things we read, but fear tended to run our discussions. It was only until the fourth meeting that the spirit was let run wild and our hearts along with Him. We didn't lose our intellectual stance on the scripture, but it was made into a product of truth rather than a product of fear. We even admitted as a team that a lot of us would only voice up when we were sure that our words would impress others. What good is it to say something profound and not have it change your life? This realization made room for honesty, tears, and more questions. I love questions. It means more seeking is required as the Lord is the only one who can give a clear answer. I ended up getting the most out of our time together that day, and I don't even think we finished reading the chapter. Since then, we've only had two other team discipleships, but they've been fruitful. I can see our tense hearts and minds being "unhinged" so that we may be moved to settle into the Spirit through our readings. There's part A of our days. Moving onto part B:
As I've mentioned before, my main ministry here in Swaziland is at the Hope House. I've been visiting with the patients and their families there on a pretty consistent basis. My two teammates, Layne and Sarah, and I have been amidst laughter, suffering, death, healing and of course awkwardness during our time at Hope. In fact, we had the privilege of experiencing all of the mentioned in one day alone. It was extremely overwhelming, but extremely Spirit-filled. We begun this visit embracing the awkward by heading towards the house of Jabulile, a primary school teacher her sacrificed many of her days caring for her sick father, who we've come to know as Makhulu, meaning "grandpa" in SiSwati. We arrived to find that Jabu was teaching for the day so that left her non-English speaking sister and mother taking care of Makhulu. We definitely contemplated leaving after 10 or so minutes of silence, but anyone who does house visits knows that silence is embraced. Allowing the Spirit to lead rather than following our human tendencies made for one sweet hour. It was filled with a lot of fanning, a tasty lunch, and many laughable moments. After having created some good memories the three of us went to see a couple and their three year old daughter whom we gave a puzzle to the previous day. We walked in to find that the 1000 piece puzzle might not have done the trick as it had been packed away. Choosing to take no offense to this, the three of us took our seats and observed the unbreakable bond between a mother and her daughter. We may not have been able to give anything outside of our presence, but we most certainly were blessed by them and the love that filled their relationship. The encouragement that came through this visit pushed me to suggest something that would be more difficult. We ventured towards a home that was burdened with intense suffering. A KhoKho (grandma) was dealing with the affliction of her HIV+ son. On my last visit I had learned that she already lost her firstborn of 9 children to AIDS. Praise God that she had the help and support of her third son, a high school teacher, during their time at Hope House. So knowing all this, we three girls were eager to lend our support through love and prayer as we made our way to this destination. We were taken aback to find the house being cleaned out by the nurses. Apparently he had passed away over the weekend. My heart was shattered. It's hard to describe what really went on during the next fifteen minutes. I certainly didn't expect to step out of the darkness so soon, but the Spirit proved it to be possible. Desiring some consistency, we girls went to visit with our friend Sihle, whom we see on a regular basis. She's been recovering nicely since the first time we met with her, so it wasn't a surprise to find that she'd been detached from Hope House and now living back in the swing of things. Praise God! She had really grown with the Lord during her time at Hope and we are so pleased to see the immense blessings He has showered on her. Her birthday is on the 22nd of this month, so we plan on seeing her next week to celebrate with lunch at KFC, her favourite. The Holy Spirit allowed this discovery to lift our spirits once again, so we decided to take a risk and go to a home we had never been to. The patient, a young lady named Nomsa, was in a dreadful state. She was extremely weak and barely talked. The few words that were said were making reference to her death, and the contentment she felt. Her trust in God was inspiring, but all of us felt the Spirit pulling us toward a greater sense of hope. As we listened to her speak of her children the feeling was solidified. It took courage, a definite abiding in the Spirit, but we finally confirmed her belief that she could be healed and prayed for it. Once again, it's difficult to describe what really went on during those moments, but the movement of the Spirit was incredible. I'm so happy to say that she is getting stronger each day and has many visitors who fellowship in a joyful atmosphere. What a day! As Sarah stated to me afterwards, "We saw all sides to servant hood and the blessing that comes with it; from laughter, to fellowship, to death, to victory, and finally to life.
With all that said, I have to reiterate my previous statement and admit my inability to record all of the blessings the Lord has revealed since my "spiritual settlement". Even today, I must have encountered ten possible blog stories! I look forward to writing more as I'm led. In the mean time I leave you with some wise words from my most recent reading, "Rees Howells: Intercessor"
John 15:7 "If you abide in Me, and My words abide in you, you shall ask what you will and it shall be done unto you." As this "abiding" was to take such a central place in his future life of intercession, it is important to see what the Holy Spirit taught Mr. Howells about it. This key text, John 15:7, makes it plain that the promise is unlimited, but its fulfillment depends on the abiding. That is why in all cases of intercession; Mr. Howells constantly spoke of guarding the "place of abiding."
The scriptural key to abiding is in 1 John 2:6, "He that says he abides in Him ought himself also to walk even as He walked." In other words, it meant being willing for the Holy Spirit to live through him the life the Saviour would have lived had He been in his place.
The way Mr. Howells maintained this abiding was by spending a set time of waiting upon God every day during the period in which the intercession lasted. The Holy Spirit would then speak to him through the Word, revealing any standard that he was to come up to, particularly in the "laws of the Kingdom" – the Sermon on the Mount. Any commandment the Spirit gave him, he must fulfill because the way of abiding is the keeping of His commandments (John 15:10). The Spirit would also search his heart and throw light on his daily life, revealing any motives or actions that needed confession and cleansing in the Blood.
... During the first week of abiding, the Lord spoke to him nightly on many things. "He began to deal with my nature," he said, "and show me things I never dreamed were there,getting deep down to my motives. It was a daily dying.
So the Spirit has been getting right down to it. I am amazed at how much dying had to be done and needs to be done. As Howell's said, "deep down to my motives" is where the change has to occur. I can only accredit being able to take part of these blessings because of the changes in my heart. This tied to God's grace makes for so much opportunity. All this so that we may settle in His Spirit.
I am very appreciative of your grace with
me as you awaited this update. It's been a long time coming and is only
arriving now thanks to my dear teammate who allowed me to use her laptop. My
current country of residence does not allow for easy internet access, thus
contact with me and the other side of the world will be limited.
The
past two weeks have been spent settling into my new home in the country of
Swaziland. That's right; God has placed me in a new location, with a new team,
and many new opportunities. I will get to that shortly, but before I dive into
describing my new found joy here I will bring you some closure with last
semester.
Jeffreys
Bay, South Africa was the scene of my extensive training. For four months my
entire root system was challenged. Through hard and necessary discipleship,
both group and one on one, I was encouraged to get back to the basics of my
faith and search for what I knew and separate that from what I'd been told. I'm
now in a place where I can call on Christ for my truth, and not from my own
prideful knowledge. It's been a rude awakening, but a completely refreshing
one. These insights have been the result of much more than just the
conversation and reading that has taken place. Thanks to my ministry at Love A
Child, the team of 50some Christ's I walked alongside, and the amazing support
system I have in my family back home I am finally realizing the truth of love.
I journey through this love daily and find it impossible to describe through
words, much less typed words. I pray that my actions will assist in this
seemingly difficult task.
Unfortunately,
none of you will be able to witness these actions first hand yet, but it is my
hope that the people of Swaziland will see love, or rather Christ, in me and
that will be relayed into eternity for all to experience.
"For I have a
great sense of obligation to people in our culture and to people in other
cultures, to the educated and uneducated alike." Romans 1:14
Paul's words perfectly express my heart
coming into this semester. Our team of 18 arrived on Swazi soil January 7. Most
of us had just a fragment of familiarity with the country, knowing only some of
its history and present day circumstances. Even now, after half a month, I am
still taking in the wealth of information that comes with understanding the
culture. I encourage all of you to research the Kingdom of Swaziland (you read
it right, it's still a monarchy) in your spare time to give you a glimpse of
the desperation here. One thing that you won't find in textbooks and on
websites is the spiritual condition of the people here. If we're just
scratching the surface, the entire country is found to be saved. They all know
the love of Christ and believe in his saving grace, but end up pouring it into
their cultural tradition. Knowing the truth that no one can serve God and
another, we have a goal of separating people from their idols to they may
experience the Lord full force as he desires. Our team of disciples are working
towards building close relationships so that we may disciple the "Christians"
and speak to them about what saved really means and the life that it entails.
The
Lord has been so gracious in providing opportunities for this goal to become a
reality. There have been around 10 ministries presented in the area and we hope
to discover more. Some of the main sites include the hospital, youth center,
men's prison, disability/rehabilitation center, and several care points. We've
been testing the waters at each of the ministries both as a team and
individually so that we will be sure where the Lord wants us to be. I myself
have found a special interest in volunteering at the Hope House, a care center
for the terminally ill. It is a collection of houses where the patient and a
care person, generally a family member, will stay until desired. There are 4
nurses overseeing the 20some patients, as well as the main nurse and "head
honcho" of the show, Sister Elsa from India. The need for the Lord and his hope
in the place is evident with the severity of the illnesses. After only visiting
3 days I am astounded with the ways God is already moving there and I'm very
excited to be a part of the continued process. My role has mostly consisted of
visiting with the patients themselves and sometimes with their families if they
are blessed enough to have someone staying with them. The language barrier has
made things move a little slower, but I have already formed fruitful
relationships with several of the patients. If you are keeping me in your
prayers please remember to mention boldness for me as most days are spent with
the usual "knocking on the door inviting myself into people's lives" drill. Of
course things will get easier as relationships are formed, but as most of you
can understand it is quite awkward at the beginning. Also pray for Sister Elsa,
the Indian Mother Theresa, and her strength day to day.
We
are required to do at least 40 hours of ministry each week so I still have
plenty of opportunities to explore. I'm drawn to the youth center ministry as well
as the care points. I'll be sure to give a more extensive description of all my
ministries as soon as the ball gets rolling, or as soon as the internet decides
to allow me.
I'm
pretty sure that marks the end of the time you took reading this lengthy update.
Thanks for taking an interest in the bigger picture. I continually pray for you
and the country of Canada.
- Your fellow Disciple.
Here is my new address if anyone wants to
send me some love through means of the mail:
Julie Anderson
Care of Gail Antosh
PO Box 5526
Mbabane, Swaziland
AFRICA
Make sure AFRICA is bold or else it will be sent to
Switzerland.
Just four months ago I was leaving for the adventure of a lifetime;
heading into to the unknown in hopes of living a life of Acts. Now I'm
looking back on the first half of my journey and wondering where in the
world my plans for this trip went. The truth is, I came to South Africa
with this great idea to stop thinking about myself and think about the
Lord. I had this grand image of me stepping into ultimate servant hood;
a God hungry girl ready to do anything it took to see His kingdom come
here on earth. Not a bad plan, but definitely not God's plan. After
extensive learning, discipleship, and experience I came to realize that
I wasn't being the servant to others that I has imagined, I was being a
servant to myself. I was forced onto a path of self discovery. This
was, at first, and extreme disappointment to me. I didn't come to South
Africa to learn about my own heart, I came to see God's. It took me up
to this point to realize that the two coincide with one another - God's
heart and my own. In looking to Him I will find more of myself. It's
impossible to serve God and not be filled in return. In writing this
I'm reminded of something someone told me before the trip.
"You will gain more than you can imagine right now. As long as you
remain open to what He has for you, you will grow immensely in your
walk the Lord."
There you have it. I've been open to racing after His heart and been
given the privilege of finding myself along the way. We are, after all,
to adopt the hearts of Christ. So bye to me, hello to Jesus.
This portion of my adventure, filled with all it's digesting, has been
the build up to an amazing outreach. I leave for the AIDS struck
country of Swaziland with a team of 15 in just a few days. My image for
the next four and a half months is similar to that which I had back in
September, but this time I will be doing His Acts with a renewed spirit.
Thanks for keeping diligent in your support through prayers for us
traveling missionaries. Know that they proven answered all the time in
the many blessings I've received while being here. And also know that
your work as missionaries back home is very encouraging to me. I look
forward to being more of a part of it when I return.
Posted in South Africa by Gail Antosh on 12/13/2008
This couldn't have come at a better time. I'm currrently being challenged with the concept of giving relationally. I love to give. It always brings me such joy to spend my money on others. However, a recent set of events has made me unable to do so. I can't even pay my trip off, much less afford to buy things for others. But as Into the Wild said, it's not all about these things. The world is trying to satisfy itself with things. Whatever happened to real gifts; relational gifts? Why not spend on others through acts of service? Why not give away some of the possessions you already own? Why not challenge yourself to reflect an act of generosity such as the one God showed some 2000 years ago? I guess the Lord has taken so much of my financial security away so that I may find security in Him, and allow more of his character to move in my life. Bring it on.
Luke 12:33-34
Sell your possessions and give to the poor. Provide purses for yourselves that will not wear out, a treasure in heaven that will not be exhausted, where no thief comes near and no moth destroys. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.